Spilling my guts
Confessions of a troubled mind.
Confessions of a troubled mind.
11 hours ago
Okay I’m going to try to sum up my weekend…
Starting with Thursday; I first had a young lady come in and hug me, I then recognized her. She was the one who had her purse, phone, and money stolen. She actually hugged and thanked me for all my help that night. The night went okay, a lot of rude ladies for most part though. Then as I left I caught up with some of my regulars’, I walked them to their car. It was great though as we got separated at the elevator they yelled “Goodbye, Chanté”, a group of seven then entered the elevator and each of them took liberty of now knowing my name. I now have seven new buddies haha.
Friday, nothing exciting happened. Though I did scare away a drunken creeper on the street. He pestered me about walking me to my car, and told me I was “kinda pretty” so I glared and said “kinda thank you”. He then told me that he was drunk and crazy, I exclaimed “No way! I’m crazy too!”. He let me be after that.
Saturday, I worked two shifts. First 5 Star for the Wine Walk, I felt uber responsible since they let me serve alcohol haha. Made great tips at that too. Made a new friend as well. She’s a fabulous artist, my centipede tattoo fascinates yet terrifies her, and turns out she’s best friends with one of my co-workers. After that shift I got to visit my siblings and my kind-of-sort-of step mom lol, they had me rolling. It was such a good time, something that I very much needed. That night I worked my regular shift at Rise. The ladies were kind and I spent a good part of the time talking with the bachelorette parties. I did have a run in with my best friend of two years, still holding back tears. I miss her so much. Sadly right as I was given the okay to clock-out, a lady had passed out in the last stall. I had to break in and save her from drowning, super gross. I had to manage to keep her awake but get a hold of security. I had to leave the stall because bitches are beyond messy and kept leaving the sinks on (they can fill up in less than two minutes and flood the restroom). So I turn them off and head back to the stall and she locked herself in, I can see her standing but she won’t open the door. So security finally comes! I tell them I can’t get in and she is going to have to be carried out. With no more than a hard tug on the stall door security opens the door, way to make me feel weak haha. Without them having to say anything to her, she books it for the exit. I’ve never seen (mind you I am not being rude, just honest) a woman her size, run that fast. It was impressive! She only made it to the restroom exit though. That’s where she nearly knocked herself out rounding the corner o_O
Sunday, we were trying a new event at work. Thirty minutes in the other restroom attendant and I were given the okay to go home. Instead we clocked out and he showed me the basement where our IT department hangs out, this same space is supposedly going to be used for something that I am very excited about (but I will say nothing of those possible plans!). So my coworker who is now a fabulous friend and I just explored the crazy large space and talked. The security guys then came in later on and got all pumped because they were given the okay to break into the wall-safe down there. They took a sledge hammer to it and were in there in no less than a five minutes. We all went on a “Goonies” type of adventure after that. Found some amazing stuff in there! I am now the owner of a signed photograph of Cyclops by Ray Harryhausen himself (may he rest in peace)! The guys were so sweet they even framed it for me!
Found a King Kong one too which I gave to Stephen who is one of my coworkers. Had such a blast! The best time I’ve had in years, the nostalgia that has washed over me is unbelievable.
So now I’m planning very big things for myself, I’m taking the finding of that Harryhausen photo as a good omen. I feel something very big is in the works for me. I can’t wait to thank my coworkers again, I was the only girl in that group last night and they treated me just like one of the guys. I mean I was in a skirt and flip-flops and I toughed it out no problem. Gosh is was so much fun!
Today I am taking it easy and playing nurse for my little sister, nerding out on a documentary about the Titanboa. Probably will visit my siblings in a bit and go for a run, maybe even a hike.
I’m in such a good mood!
5 days ago
Anonymous asked: I don't know, it's weird. Regardless of anything though, the main reason why I don't talk to you is because we live a couple states away from each other so there's that.
I’m not sorry to say it, but that is a lame reason.
The closest friends I have ever know live all over the world, I’m sure love lives way past Nevada for me so the distance doesn’t bother me any.
Anonymous asked: I love the way you write. Sometimes it makes me want to cry (in a good way).
Aw thank you! That means so much to me ♥
I honestly do not mean to be a slacker.
Yesterday got crammed with nurse duty, chores, errands, and I tried to save a feral kitten (he’s no more than a month old). Poor little guy was stuck in the vacant house’s backyard that is next door to our house.
He’s quick! If I can save him today, I can keep him (my mother actually agreed to it).
It’s starting to become a routine, like every six months I save one of the feral cats/kittens.
Anywho, I’m super boring. Nothing Exciting or even interesting to discuss today.
I’m taking care of my inbox right now!
My little sister went in for surgery today, and she’s doing great.
They removed her tonsils and adenoids, she’s breathing much better now.
I’m so tired, so tired.
I worked my ass off on those wreaths and nothing became of them.
Disappointed, starving, and exhausted.
I must get out of my house but I can of course only venture in darkness, because in the first part of my days this week I have to look after my little sister and play nurse.
I love my job but it takes so much out of me.
Take care lovelies, I’ll knock out my flooded inbox tomorrow.
I must get through this week!
I’ve been slaving away and not enjoying you lovely folks. It’s such a pity.
I shouldn’t even be typing right now, my fingers are burnt and bloodied from the very stupid idea that I had to make wreaths for the Toga Crawl my work is hosting on Saturday.
I’m suppose to have roughly fifty of these awful contraptions… I only have twenty-three so far.
Uber tedious work. It may sit right with my worry and cause my death.
In other news Patrick wants to hang out and do yoga on Sunday. Um no, make up your fucking mind as to where I stand on this Earth for you and then just maybe will I “hang out” with you. Dick.
Instead I will be going on a hike with my little sister and then I got invited by a co-worker to hang out with him and a bunch of his friends and watch “Sushi Girl” later on that night. Which is way better than chilling with Patrick. Plus I love my co-worker he’s such a rad guy, super accepting, and we get lost in neverending movie discussions constantly.
I feel very indifferent today. Last night I had an “ex” from middle school tackle me into a hug. Sweet kid, he still sees me in positive light. Told me how much I helped him back then. Sadly I had forgotten that I had ever had a “boyfriend” in middle school. That was a very busy time, many more intense events from then have blurred my memory a bit. I’ll have to tell you all of those events some other time.
But damn. Someone from my past still thinks of me kindly. I feel as though that I have done something right for once.
My sincerest apologies guys!
I don’t mean to ignore your messages or either of my blogs, I just haven’t had the time to take of them.
My computer completely crashed and is now officially fried, so I have been liberating my parent’s computer whenever I get the chance.
So a quick update on things!
A lot has happened in this past week but mostly at work.
The usual being drunken slobs that call themselves women, gotten invited to watch a dominate and subordinate session (I am so weirded out by it that I had no reply to the person who invited me, I just did a nervous laugh and scattered away), keep getting teased by one of the security guards at work (I think he’s flirting, but I’m not entirely sure), almost got attacked by a drunken prick on the way back to my car after a shift (what little self-esteem I do have is now utterly raw, he thought I was a harlot). Yes I did cry a few times because of that last one.
I do love everyone I work with though, my co-workers and bosses are such lovely people.
Oh and I’ve been saving up, I’ve made such great progress! Another plus to my job is that I make bank in tips.
I’ve been talking with a few friends a lot more recently.
Should be starting some new projects here soon, between YouTube covers, song collaborations, and one film project.
Around my birthday I am planning a trip out to see one of my friends who lives in Texas, which should be interesting but all should go well. I may even take off another week to go up to Washington and see my family and old friends.
I think that even if it’s just for a little while, getting away like that will be good for me.
As of right now I can’t stop thinking about work, so my home-life hasn’t been getting to me too much.
I take care of my little sister, annoy her and my mother when I can, and I don’t speak to my step dad. So it’s quite peaceful at the moment.
Well I hope all of you are doing well, I will get to your messages soon!
As of right now I must go take care of the dishes, start one of my many side projects for work, then hit the store, and pick up the kid from school.
Hail Satan ♥